.. michelle ..

Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aerorplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

Dear friend,
When you got up this morning, I observed you, and I hoped that you would talk to me. No matter, if they were only few words, asking my opinion or just giving thanks for something that happened to you yesterday.

Dear God
It was really nice of you to take time out to write to me in spite of you having to rule the whole world. When I opened my eyes today I wanted to say "Good Morning, Lord" but before I could do it, my mother yelled at me "Get up!", my father added "You'll be late for school again" and my brother took another 10 minutes to come out of the bathroom and so I had a fight with him.

But I noticed that you were very busy packing your school bag, getting into your uniform for school.

Alas, God, how I wish you did not make mankind so "smart" as to create school so that we do not have to go through the daily struggle of going to this institution that makes us stupid -- in spite of our parents' efforts to make us look more brilliant to impress their friends they don't like. About my school bag, the people in the education ministry are not very smart, they cannot even solve the school bag problem which is making three-quarter of the student population in Bolehland haggard and slanted. Please give them more brains, God.

I continued hoping, while you were doing things in a hurry, I knew that there were still some minutes for you to stop for a moment and tell me “Hello!”. But you were much too busy.

I know, I know it was selfish of me. But there were times when I did call out to you when I sighed or screamed "O my God!", "God!" :)

This is why I lighted the sky for you. I filled it with colors and beautiful songs of birds. Just to see if you could hear me. But you did not notice this.

Its difficult to notice your creation these days, God. All I see is black and white. The fresh air has been replaced by the haze and the usually chirpy birds are all choked up and trying hard to maintain their balance on whatever twigs that remain on this thing that we call a tree.

I observed you while going to school and I waited patiently the whole day.
With all your activities I suppose you were much too busy to tell me something.
While you were coming back I noticed your tiredness and I wanted to shower upon you some water to take away your stress, I wanted to make you a favor so that you would think of me, but you got angry and offended my name.

I love the rain, God, I really do, but its my mother, she says I will catch a cold or a fever and then there's the danger of acid rain and then who is the one who will eventually suffer but my dear mother....then she will say "Don't you have any sense than to get wet?" and when I show her my obvious pleasure of having got wet....she will make me feel that I will never want to get wet again.....

I really wished you would talk to me… there was still enough time. Later on you turned on the television, I waited patiently while you were watching it and having your supper, but you forgot again to talk to me…

I guess I was so preoccupied dear God. The idiot box is my only outlet for it does not require any thinking..

I noticed that you were tired and I understood your silence, so I darkened the clarity of the sky. But I did not leave you in darkness, I just changed it with a small light, it was really beautiful, but you were not interested in seeing it.

You are really so understanding God. Due to my life being all decided upon by the people you have put in charge of me, I have no time to watch the stars that u have made, but I managed to buy big luminous stars and stick them on my ceiling and watch them glare at me till I fall asleep.

At the time of sleeping, I think you were already exhausted. After saying good night to your family, You lay on your bed and fell asleep almost instantly,
I accompanied your sleep with music, my night animals did very well, No problem, because you might not realize that I am always there for you.

Thank you God for all that I have taken so much for granted, except for the night animal -- my neighbour's barking dog whom I suspect is suffering from some sort of brain damage like the owner. May you heal the both of them.

I have more patience than what you can imagine. I would like to teach you also how to be patient with others. I LOVE YOU so much that I wait every day for a prayer. The landscape that I make is only for you …Well, you are getting up again And I hope again, just out of my love for you May you have a nice day !!!!

Your friend
God


You are really an awesome God. Pls continue to be patient with me.
Yes, I will "multiply" this beautiful letter of yours and hopefully they will reply to you and give you many more excuses like I have done!!!!

Your unworthy friend, MARTIN JALLEH

NOTE:

i used to curse all those nuts who went after ppl to get pictures with them. that day at cheer, Lydia came up with a bright idea and we ALL played along! we all sneaked "backstage" and we were running and prancing around looking for Joee G? hahaha. can u bear? i can't believe we did that okay. best part? we couldn't find himmmm.. then winston HAD to go use the toilet there. lol. then after a whole round or two around the backstage, we came out. sigh.. so we saw xandria or however u spell her name.. then we went and got a picture with her. she's pretty much pretty. =) oh!! and i think Jien's just an ass and 3 quarters. =) LOL.. he has this thing against blitzerz! so anyhoo, we finally got our pics with joee G. then since lydia and jocelyn liked jien so much, we went on looking. finally, we found him and a few of em were yelling JIEN!!! and the other few of us had "run for cover!!" in our heads.. hahaha. oh well.. its all good. then we got a quick pic with him la.. so yeahh.. it was all good. i think Blitzerz did VERY well on the 2nd day. and i think it was also quite an achievement for them. "best showmanship"  hmmm.. then there was titans. now they were really creative! dynamitez had a really really impressive routine i say!!! =) oh and the brownies are going crazy with their cheers in skl! its stuck in my head!!

will share em someday. =)

Baby, you're sailing today
Baby you're sailing away
Sugar, wish I could go too
But honey you know
I'm happy for you

Wish I, I wish I, I wish I
Wish I was going too

Baby, your ship has come in
Baby, adventures will begin
Sugar, don't you worry ‘bout me
'Cause honey you know
Want you to be happy

Wish I, I wish I, I wish I
Wish I was going too

But if you find you don't like it
and the people there aren't inviting
or that city life is too frightening
won't you come home

Wish I, I wish I, I wish I
Wish I was going too
Wish I, I wish I, I wish I
Wish I was going too.

THANKS BABE!

So many times i was alone and couldn't sleep
You left me drownin' in the tears of memory
And ever since you've gone I've found it hard to breathe
Cause there was so much that your heart just couldn't see
A thousand wasted dreams are rollin off my eyes
But time's been healing me and I say goodbye

Cause i can breathe again dream again
I'll be on the road again
Like it used to be the other day
Now i feel free again so innocent
Cause someone makes me whole again for sure
I'll find another you

Could you imagine someone else is by my side
I've been afraid he couldn't keep myself from falling
My heart was always searching for a place to hide
Could not await the dawn to bring another day
You're not the only one, so hear me when I say
The thoughts of you they just fade away

Cause i can breathe again dream again
I'll be on the road again
Like it used to be the other day
Now i feel free again so innocent
Cause someone makes me whole again, for sure
I'll find another you

Sometimes i see you when i close my eyes
You're still a part of my life

But i can breathe again dream again
I'll be on the road again
Like it used to be the other day
Now i feel free again so innocent
Cause someone makes me whole again for sure
I find another you
I find another you

dedicated to yaya. do read this.

yesterday, my day was like.. not too bad. we had tuition. Rafie drove to my house for tuition! he can drive! so so unfair i say. desmond came late. hmmmm. andrea also! well she had a pretty good reason. anyways, after tuition i was rushing. changing. andrea too. we were rushing to go watch M the opera in Istana Budaya. i was so caught up with picking out something to wear (formal), i didn't notice my dear laura called and msgd a few times? hehehehehe. nyeks. sorry. then i had to send rachel down to open the gate for her. fuiyoo. hawtness. hahaha. you know what? i chose my jewellery before i chose my clothes okay. unfortunately, thats just not how it's supposed to go! =s well the same thing happened to laura. =) i bet it was that Bizen piece she wanted to wear! so yeah. hahaha. darn! hehe. i left the house with my mom, alex, aunty winnie, rachel, laura and andrea. it was quite off cos the whole time i just felt like i needed and wanted to wear that other necklace! *rolls eyes* its so damn amazing how one small piece of jewellery actually made me feel that way. so yeah. we were in this whole sesat KL jam for frigging long okay! and when we finally got there, we got our so-called 'special-invites' tickets (free of course) and we went to makan! i swear the food tasted so good okay. i mean.. wtv. i was really hungry. anything would taste good when you're in my shoes. okay. then there was the opera. i liked the orchestra part. they were good. and the drummer too! hehehehehe. oh and there was this fella with gorgeous abs. yes andrea. not ass. my mistake. haha. uh. yeah. nice abs. and ladida. it was average la. nothing compared to stomp. =p oh when it finally finished at like 11pm, we were exhausted. plus those few times we accidentally snoozed off during the thingy. oh well. so we left and we went to gloria jeans. OMGSH! u wouldnt believe how happy i was to see gloria jeans okay? i mean the one in SS2 closed down! i think my mom and i were the only ones who went there constantly. and the one in KLCC also closed! WTH? sigh. Gloria jeans is way better than starbucks, coffee bean, san fran and whatsoever. =) hehehe. i had my mint bomb yesterday nite! FINALLY!! after like.. so long! looks like i'll be going to KL more often. i mean. my mom loves gloria jeans too! oh and KL's full of weird ppl!!! hahaha. i dont ever wanna go there anymore if possible but it's quite impossible. i mean.. GLORIA JEANS is thereeeeeeeeeeee... hmmm... yeah. thats about it.

p/s: Laura and andrea, remember our Grease outing okay!!! hahaha. <3

oh. and thats the picture of the necklace i wanted to wear and the other one's M the opera.